Even as things fall apart and people pass on or just through. It wont stop to give anyone sympathy. Why should I?
I've gotten the notion that relationships that are constantly based on bickering or the problems of others do not work for me..
It makes no sense to me that I should worry about someone else's feelings when all I care about is mine. I find nothing wrong with being selfish.. But maybe you do
I dont care very much anymore to be quite frank
Don't get me wrong there are relationships that help me thrive and be truly happy, but I compare those Im mostly happy in to those were Im constantly fighting and I see the major differences, the complex problems that can never be resolved.
So I will cling to only the relationships i feel are healthy...
which leads to a good time of loneliness.
I can see happiness in being alone most of the time. Going to the bookstore and just getting lost in whatever I choose. Or just bettering my MIND by studying or figuring out things I don't understand..
Maybe sitting in starbucks writing poetry to later turn into music.
Or finding new music and ideas others in different places have.
I know I can accomplish much more than just caring on stupid drama and pointless conversations about people I dislike.
It's time to cleanse my mind of all these disturbances that keep me rooted into the fucked up social world of High School.
I'm over it.
There's nothing that's going to benefit me in the long run from these people or their problems.
If that means losing things and creating a different image for myself I suppose I'll have to go through with it.
With any time of change comes hurt, but maybe thats what some people need.
I feel it to some extent but I've realized I dont care, at all.
Maybe its just my cynical mindset coming into crystal clear view, but I'm done with almost anyone who doubts my thoughts or actions.
Everything happens for a reason.
